Life is interesting. Life is beautiful. If so, then death must be too.

"The Gods envy us. They envy us because we're mortal, because any moment may be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed".

The last few months has been a test of endurance. More so a test of time as well. I've been getting along nicely here with the surroundings as I like the peace, the quietness of the suburbs and how everything seems so simple.

I met some decent people, but most of the time I wander the pathways of uni on my own. Observing, figuring, and knowing. I've never been bad at judging people by just observing, and hardly ever wrong. People tend to lean towards the heart when it comes to telling about someone, and nobody ever thinks objectively. People are not rational. Society is not rational.

The Indian group here has two guys, two girls. You can tell from their accent and their whatever Indian thing that they are India Indians. Guy A is the one wearing specs, taking down every single thing the lecturer says in class, fuzzy hair, geeky bag and geeky walk, gels in just coz' he thinks he has a chance to impress the ladies with his answering the lecturer's questions and telling lame jokes kind of thing. But we all know that the ladies never go for that. Guy B is the guy who has sunglasses on him all the time, be it inside lecture halls and what not. He's the don't-take-notes at all kind of fellow, just listening in lectures and really works hard in tutes. You can tell he hasn't really been in a relationship with anyone as he always sits the furthest apart from the ladies and hardly ever gets into proper conversations with them apart from work and he always tries to find male friends of the same skin type. He's like the not-really-into the girls but wanting to meet someone outside of education life. Girl A is the loud-speaking, thick-accent, thinks she's a know-it-all kind of person but often scares people. She's the one that is like the hardly ever meets a guy as she always wants to know the things that Girl B does. She's like the Monica in high school, and Girl B is like the Rachel (referring to Friends). She's quite smart, but then makes a big deal of almost everything and always wants to impress the guys. She definitely will hook up with someone if someone is interested, but definitely not with Guy A. On the other hand, Girl B is the one that isn't too bright, a little pretty but wants to go outside of her league to find guys she can't get. She's not really interested with the Indian group but leans more to the Mauricius group to like try to find a way to branch out to actually snag a guy. Kind of like your little ice princess that wants the world at her feet, obeying her every want and need.

The Mauricius group are like easy-going people. They speak French most of the time, so it's kind of hard to actually interpret anything even by looking at expressions. They work hard, play hard and are your average kind of people. They're cool with you as long as you're cool with them and they're friendly. Never hypocritical as they do talk bad about people to you if they don't like them. That I can tell even if you speak in a thousand different languages. Haha. They enjoy the life here as it's not as fast as it is in the city but they always want that tad bit of excitement or more? I think prolly growing up along the beaches kinda grows on you in that sense. They're normal people, who don't actually seem interested in trying to hit on one another which is rather odd. Probably coz' one of the guys is interested in a variety of girls which includes Indian Girl B, the other is something like Indian Guy A, one of the girls has a boyfriend in the city and the other girl is your quiet girl which doesn't really appeal to the guys because she's quiet, but even when she's not she would be seen more like Indian Girl A. I don't know their actual numbers so I can't really define each of them but they all seem the same to me. Lazy sometimes, skipping class and attending lectures late but all in all, not too bad kinda people. Talking in French is key to them as they always go back to their own people to talk.

The China/HK group are the majority (85-90%). It feels like I'm studying in China sometimes. They're the type which are the most annoying and the most loud, as the numbers will back that up. Some of the girls would be those extremely desperate to get into a relationship kind of thing, trying their best to like woo the other China guys, but they're seen as those needy, desperate and only wanting a guy because she wants a guy and not because of how she feels. Which is partially kind of true because these girls are like those just wanting that extra bit of attention compared to her fellow desperatees. Seriously, these people should be diagnosed with ADD. Another part of the girls would be those not pretty girls but think they are and thinking that they can get any guy they want. They're extremely kiasu and think that they own the world and that everyone sees them as how beautiful they think they are but in fact everyone sees them as a bitch. Then they'll complain to each other about how they've been treated bla bla bla, which makes them more of an idiot. They're never smart but always think that they are, and China guys resent them for being like that, so they normally would end up bitching about each other when the other one is not around. Kind of like your typical blonde, Chinese style. Others would just fit into the anonymous category, either really concentrating on studying or not that desperate for a guy but still would trade places with type A if possible. China guys are like 20% of the China population and either they have a girlfriend, don't want a girlfriend, or can't get a girlfriend. Okay, maybe all guys fall into those categories but yeah, it's either they have a girlfriend there and they both are apart from the rest of the group. Or the guys just mingle with other China guys because of the resentment towards the girls. Or they mix with the girls and sort of like fall into the category of Indian Guy A.

The Indon group has two guys and two girls as well I think. Guy A and B are the same kind of people, both wanting Girl A but Girl A not wanting them. They're like good friends and they always joke around with the girls. They're not too bad a group, except they talk way too loud and talk too much as they tend to disrupt lectures. Guy A and B are like your big-sized, not too smart, decent, well-mannered kind of guys. They're not desperate to seek a relationship but when an opportunity comes, they definitely won't let it go. I think it's only a matter of time before one of them actually really tries to hit on Girl A, but who knows. Girl A has that girl next door kind of look, but she's Indon. Haha. She's pretty and definitely will attract attention but she resents the attention as most of the time she'd rather just hang back and talk to Girl B. She's not really into the two guys, but from the way she is, possibly she's a gold digger or maybe she just wants to wait for the right guy to come along. Hard to tell which though. She's the type of girl that is really health conscious but can't resist temptation kind of thing. Most of the time she'll order salad, but at the same time have a cup of fries to go with that. Girl B is the quiet girl which has a crush on either Guy A or B. I can't tell which but definitely one of them. She's the one that wears specs, a lil geeky, but not that smart either, gets along well with Girl A but sort of like gets a lil jealous of Girl A's looks. She doesn't really need a guy but if possible she'd want a guy coz' she feels insecure about whether or not she'll be able to find a guy out there who wants her back.

The Vietnam group (prolly like 7-8 people) consists mostly of guys. They're the really study people. But then language barrier makes it hard for them to actually understand the syllabus well. So most of their time are spent on the books and mingling among each other. Their relationship life is almost non-existant as they pretty much don't give a crap about each other, apart from two or three guys who seem to be inseperable.

The Malaysian group is almost non-existant. Prolly coz' I came in during the middle of the year but there's only one other Malaysian that did the same as me, and she mixes with the China group. Generally, Malaysians here are different from Malaysians back in Malaysia. Back in Malaysia, you'll always be who you are, as who you were in high school and college. Here you're a totally different person. You get to be whoever you want to be. Problem with that? There is no status quo. Personally, I think Malaysians are the dumbest kind of people you can find here. They try so hard to fit in that they actually don't. They resent ang mohs but try so hard to act like one, where is the logic in that? The abscence of a status quo pretty much puts a lot of things out of place. Like how the girl you can never ever get in high school, you now have free opportunities to talk to. The guy who is like the nerd, the bullied, the almost non-noticeable person, now has a chance to be like damn cool or something. People don't change. There is a reason why you were like that once, and by altering that, puts things not the way it should be. Everybody lies.

Malaysian girls always want to look nice. Fact, nobody wants to look bad. But Malaysians think too highly of themselves. Girls like to pose in photos with their hand on the waist-neck tilt pose, trying to think that they are that sexy and that beautiful. They strive and hope to find that dream guy from TV series, but they never ever get them and the simple explanation they can come up with is "All guys are the same". Ever wondered why the guys you wind up with are never the guy that seems to be the one? Because you're not being who you are. They think all guys are jerks, only wanting pretty girls and then going to jump ship to a different boat when they're done riding them. That's because those are the kind of guys they only mix with. If you're the kind of girl that constantly has like 50-60 photos in every FB album, posing with your hand on the waist-neck tilt pose or having almost every guy holding you kind of thing, chances are you're either single, dumped, or/and never been in a relationship for more than 3 years. Either that, or your boyfriend simply doesn't care about your partying style because he has his own group to party with or has cheated on you before or he's gonna end up being the guy that hurts you like mentioned before.

They often ponder and ask where are all the nice guys or why is it that the guys you want never seem to be around and the guys that you don't want are always around you. Malaysians are not ang mohs. The good guys are not going to be around like those movies or those TV shows. Good guys never like girls with partying habits and such. Yes, not all good guys are those who are tough, or strong, or bad, or vice, or extremely hot. But who ever is? That guy you met at the bar, you think he's the one? Drinking, partying? Why else are guys doing these things? They're there for a fling, a one night stand, a hook up right until he gets tired of you. Yeah, really good guys if you'd ask me. Do you think they really love you? Good guys are out there,  you girls are just not taking the effor to find them, coz' you're still hoping for your Disney fairytale but living life in a totally different way because of the insecurities that surround you if you're alone and having no guy friends or no friends around you.

Malaysian guys always have their eyes on the girls. At first sight, they'd always want that girl which draws the most attention, the one that catches the eye, the one that is most outstanding, but in the end it won't work out in the long run. Malaysian guys are like either looking to hook up with another girl, or are just plain not wanting to be in a relationship. Those who are either looking to hook up with the girls prolly will be those guys with a not too noticeable high school life, decent college life and will always stick around the girls. Like constantly going out with the girls in hope that they will like them, which usually never comes true because of the nature stated in the high school part. You can change from high school to uni, but you can't change what high school made you. Those with quite a good high school rep prolly would've ended up being in those groups where you'd see them not in a relationship but always having good friends, or already in a relationship and happy, or the opposite of those which is your typical party boy which all the girls fall for but doesn't give a crap about the girls (the type where the girls go for and in the end the guy dumps them). Malaysian guys are extremely predictable, most are clueless about relationships, prolly coz' most are hooked onto video games. The guys who are like close friends with girls, either prolly had a crush on the girl before, or is still having a crush, those crushes never fade but can be rekindled if a spark were to occur. Either that, or that is the really nice guy or the good guy, but girls will only treat them as friends, and in some cases, the feeling might be mutual but definitely at one point it wasn't.

They often have that close bond with other guys with their whole instantly "Yo bro, wassup? Sup bro?" kind of thing, but boys will always be boys. If there comes a time where they have to do something which betrays the other, definitely it would happen. Unless of course you have developed that friendship since a long time ago but then, that might still happen, as it did to me. The rule is that no "brother" is ever going to be before a girl. No matter how much they put it, they'd go for the girl. Simple as that. They don't really care which girl, but the rule is the rule. Good guys on the other hand are the ones hidden, a needle in the haystack. You'll only know you find one when it pokes you and even then, coz' of the pain from the poke, you'll not want to grab it again.

I've said enough. Toodles.


*It's the last day on Earth.