I'm working! Okay, probably not the best way to start off a post after being MIA for like... oh wow, almost four months. Lol. Oh wells. Yeah, anyway, I'm now working in CIMB Investment Bank. Sadly.

But the good thing is, only as an intern and I still get to enjoy February like a normal person. I'm currently under the Treasury department, which is actually kind of good since it could benefit me in the future to get into other banks' Treasury department (apparently it isn't an easy place to enter). So yeah, money markets, bonds, derivatives, IPOs, Forex, etc etc. At least I get to see what the people do there to justify their RM1 million or more earnings a year. D:

Other than work, life has been rather slow and subdued lately. Even the water flowing through the river stream has seen more than I have. The only thing that keeps me in touch with anything is the radio, and of course sometimes the net. There hasn't been many good songs to listen to lately, at least it's much better than the time when there was an influx of Katy Perry and Lady Gaga-esque songs. Seriously unbearable times they were.

I find that most girls these days are pretty shallow. Well, at least the ones that you usually see around are anyway. It's hard to actually find a gal who actually has a proper personality without actually pretending or without falling into that general category of gals that you meet all the time. And because of that, it has led to the general rise of guys going to the gym to try and get "that" body to attract the female specimen and/or going to clubs and randomly hooking up with chicks.

Either that or the fact that the rise in clubs and sleezy bars have caused an influx of gals gunning down men at these places who pretty much have the means to spend wrecklessly. I think the latter is the much more viable explanation.

And guess what, gals these days do want guys that have a good body, good looks and that swagger (and when I mean swagger, I mean money). And guess where's the best place to look for these guys, yup, we all know where. That's when you see gals that are 21 - 23 hooking up with guys who are like 27 - 30. It's more of a common occurence these days.

I mean ladies, if you don't want to be oogled on or you want to find Mr. Perfect who has the looks, the charm and at the same time is like the nicest guy in the world, do you really think you'd find him at a bar drinking away or do you think you can change the guy who goes to bars and clubs just to get into a girl's pants? The world is pathetic, seriously.

Why do you really think guys like to go to clubs? Free chance to grind some random chick. Great place to hook up with a bunch of gals. Perfect place to find someone to fuck. Simple as that. And yet, we all still believe that there's some tiny part of that guy that makes him like the best ever and he will never do anything to hurt me. Oh, please. Wake up and smell the roses, people.

Then there's the other bunch of guys that will never be able to pick up the chicks, but they still go to bars and clubs anyways just because they want to be like 'that' guy. In fact, these are probably the guys that you either made sandbags in high school or were part of those backseat distorted bunch that nobody ever heard about outside of their school. But they're pretty much not the focus of this, since they're always going to remain in the "friend zone" with the people they wanna date.

The modern age killer. All gals now want to be that glamorous chick, with all the other gals praising their dress, how they look, etc etc. Besides that, what else you've got? Pretty much nothing. What ever happened to the classics? Elegance, beauty and passion is what makes a gal a woman. And you hardly ever see these things in any girl that you know, I am pretty sure. Because all girls now like to "play dress up" and the only thing they know is to party away and/or shop. Yes, you can pretty much sum up each one of them because you can see right through them like a glass.

I guess it's why I actually admire a gal who actually enjoys playing the piano, guitar or some other musical instrument. I feel connected somehow because of the passion and I always do have a soft spot for elegance, especially that of a lady. It feels as though she's timid, but she's aggressive at the same time. Shy but bold enough to voice out for what she believes in. Soft but strong enough to hold her own in an argument. Selfish but loving enough to understand what it takes to make a relationship. <3

Every girl whose in a relationship wants to have the freedom as though they are not in one. Definition of this would be a girl which is in a relationship that still wants to have all of her single friends, do all of her single things and mingle around like she's a single gal but in fact, she's attached to a guy. Every guy whose in a relationship either wishes that their girlfriend would realise that or, well there's pretty much no or. If a guy is that well-adjusted with the fact that his girlfriend is out talking to guys everyday, clubbing, and/or just can't stand the fact of spending time with that guy, then the guy is either guilty of something even worse, or he's out doing the same thing, or he has a bunch of girls that he knows and he just loves being a victim to get sympathy from them. After all, which guy doesn't like being adored by gals, especially a guy that is "so kind, so sweet, so caring to his partner but his partner treats him like crap". Awwww. ;O

Marriage is a curse, more than it is a blessing. If your relationship changes just because of two words, then what was your relationship before your marriage based on? It's like how people make a big deal about a married guy talking to or spending time with another woman. I mean hello, even if he's not married but in a relationship, is that any better? Are his actions supposed to be controlled by a title, and not governed by how he feels about his partner? So, what exactly changed when the person you love does that when you're not married and when you are? A piece of paper? A title? Is that what love is about, that paper, that marriage title? Isn't it supposed to be how you feel, how your partner feels? Is that different just because you're married?

A relationship is a commitment, whether marriage or not, people who fail to see it that way are people who I feel that are blind towards love because why is it that a piece of paper and a title and a ceremony is what makes a relationship "formal". Love is beyond a piece of paper, a title and a ceremony, it is that bond, that commitment and that person you feel so deeply about.

This is why relationships fail more often than not, people change after getting married. Everyone thinks getting married changes everything, like "he can't leave me if I do this, that, this, that because we're married". I say screw you. Only idiots think that way, and bigger idiots don't do anything about it. I don't care if I get 99 divorces because let's face it, I'm never going to settle down with a person that I'm not completely happy about.

I guess I'm the kind of guy who needs that closeness, who needs to know that the person he's commited to is just as commited, who needs to know that the person he puts before everyone else is willing to do the same, who needs to know the person he loves and is able to be himself with, loves him back equally and is able to be herself too.

Maybe I'm insecure, maybe I'm naive for believing such things, or maybe I'm a little crazy. Tell me which guy who isn't, and I can tell you that you'll never get married to him. You want to know if I'm sure? Not in your life.

I like pushing dates back when I post for some reason. Probably because I always think I'll end up posting more than I actually do and I hate double-posts on the same day. The format is just pretty sucky overall.

Boring, boring, boring. This semester feels like it's going to pass by pretty fast. I'm already behind three lectures at the moment. Heh. Can't wait for my final semester where I get to do language classes. That'll make things a lot more free.

Actuarial Studies or Econometrics? Hmm. I've never quite pondered as much for anything, but this requires some deep thinking. D:

I'll probably start talking about random things more in the future. I feel like I've lost quite a bit of my touch for writing. The passion is there, but the mind isn't willing to. ;O

Winter has been rather hot this time around. The sun is shining brightly and I don't even have to turn on the heater for most days. Oh well. Be back soon. Guerb.

Seems like this is going to be one long semester. Nine hours of uni on Tuesdays, the most it has ever been. Well, I could probably make it into six but still, that'd be rather tiring. I miss my two class uni days. ):

Anyway, since the Picture of the Day theme failed (like fail fail), maybe I should consider taking up a new theme. Although it's a little hard to go beyond pictures or walls of text. Oh well.

My Distinction/ High Distinction streak has been ended last semester, no thanks to bloody group assignments (I swear I'll never do another one ever again) and a really screwed up exam paper (in which I somehow got 47/80 when I only did 70/180 of the paper and I don't even think I actually got 70). Pfft. D:

Monash is quite messed up in terms of exams to be honest. Tutorials and past exams are like the core to your preparation. And by core, I mean your exam question word for word. Anything beyond that is either not taught in class or beyond your level of learning, and voila, missing out on another Distinction by 3 marks despite getting a 20/20 mid-sem.

Off to grab a bite now. Qwertyuiop.

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